::Helena::

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought to you tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

What's the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

someone dedicate this song to me long ago...tetibe ari nie aku teringat..ape khabar die..he's nice...farkingly nice "da husband type" material..we remain friends up until his married girlfriend stop us to remain friends..

aku pun aneh..dah kawen..i forgive him for being stupid...he choose to be blindly in love with her even tho she married someone else..i was with him thru his heartbreak..did he listen...of cos not..i dun really care actually he's with someone else..

time gf die lom kawen aku memang tadek masalah..bile dah kawen haruslah aku tak suke kan..kapel balik ngan minah tue....arrgghh..at least go and find someone who is much more better than me..

still think of him occasionally as a fren..tau tak prasaan yang tetibe ko nak call kawan ko tanye khabar..gelak gelak..carik gaduh...hhmm...but well..suit himself lah..

terpakselah aku kaco kawan aku yang lain untuk gaduh gaduh dan gelak gelak...oklah..nak gie kaco kawan aku yang salu temankan aku makan bile di putrajaya ketika aku sesat mencarik bangunan MOF yang melengkung itu...

poyaan terus

wawawaw....tajuk yg gedik..wawaw..maaf..takleh explain ye..2 hari poya-poya nie..oh dem..ape ko giler cik diella...smlm tadek mane pown..memandu tanpe arah tuju tue seronok kay..tp mood agak mellow smlm..hanye mau diam dan company yg bagus..n thats wat i haf last nite..

aku masih tidak tenang mengenangkan situasi si dia..tekanan aku..masih emosi..ah dem...aku tau dia perlu menghabiskan dengan yang tersayang..takpe takpe...aku faham walaupun takmo paham..masih boleh ke aku nk meracau kat ko bile aku tak tenang..?

minggu nie sgt byk poyaan..ngan nasi ayam la..ngan nasi lemak la..ngan roti paratha, garlic bread n kaya & butter toast..hoih..byk nye ko mkn cik diella..ko hengat alam flora..tadek tadek..tahun nie tadek nk masuk spital.*tue jerk salu jalan aku kurus..wawawawawaw....

ari nie aku neves...kenduri di umah Eyul..ah dem..adik die kawen ari nie..aku malas nk beli adiah..bg duit sudah...knape aku neves..ntah..muahahahhaha...sile jgn jeles..Eyul jerk ye..ah dem..kalo aku pown jeles kan..dem dem dem...i shud limit myself la weh...sile lempang aku laju2..tp aku tak datang tolong....limit la tue kan...

entri yg kelam kabut..sbb aku tak tenang...takpe..kang ade jerk sesi menenangkan ati..ade jerk sesi suke suki..wakakakak...

quote of da day

"I dun care as long as it's yours"

::Photostat A3::

semalam petang aku dikejutkan *takdelah terkejut sgt pown sebenarnye...Technical Manager call ckp borang nk wat PM kat BTM takde n tanye aku for da copy..Tanye bos aku..dh tentu-tentu bos aku suh Technical Manager tue yg usahakan..tp aku dh tau dh..sebelum aku tanye bek aku survey dulu kat mane leh print A3..skali bAdd ckp kat Melawati tue boleh..N kalo tak leh mmg aku serang die kat opis mintak tolong print kan..ngehehhe..alah...5 kiping jerk...

So after Maghrib aku gie Melawati..Skali bile sampai kat traffic light Giant tue..aku mengigil-gigil..because of tis..tetibe cam rase rindu nye...siang tadi cll adik die takdelaks menggegel-gegel..elok jerk borak ngan adik pasal nk print A3 tue...God I miss Hellmy his adik...Adiknye sangat ku sayang yg bersungguh-sungguh..Sanggup nie backing adik die nk mati time berchenta dulu..ngeheheh...knape aku menggegel-gegel? Refer to this
*para 3 & 4

time kat traffic light tue aku dh berpeluh..tak tau nape..even tho dh lame tak masuk melawati..I can still remember the turutan of the traffic light..punyelah dulu tiap2 hari n sometimes 2-3 kali sehari ulang-alik melawati..tetibe aku jadi paranoid..cane tetibe die kat dlm kedai yg same..aku nk wat per..?

padehal bile pegi tue..takde ape pown..takde terserempak ke ape ke..hhmm..prasaan aku..why I'm feeling like tis...? Cos I know deep inside my heart I still care bout him. But takpelah..Mmg aku yg dump die..standard la..time tue nk bebas kan..aku tak menyesal cos if I dun dump him...Aku tak kenal all my experience in life..Aku maseh still pikir takde orang jahat kat mesia nie..orang takkan nk aniaya kite kat club or di tgh kota..Naive tak aku...More like bangang ekceli..

tp skang..aku maseh sayang n windu..takpelah...hadap jerk...bukan susah pown..

Ish

aku nie di opis..tgh settlekan minute meeting..isnin nie bos aku nk tgk...huhuhuh...letih la aku jadi translator...org bercuti aku di opis sambil ditemani org tersayang...wawwaw...leh romen-romen dlm opis..ngehehehhe...ok tak org tersayang saye??...ngehehehhehe

nie aku dh abih...nie aku nk balik umah bukak lampu n idai baju sume...selepas itu kami mahu trus berjimba atau romen-romen di umah aja...ngehehehhe....

aku tgh marah nie..aku ade lah close with one of my ex...mmg sgt2 close la...skali tue dah 2-3 hari die tak angkat...skali tadi aku try cll gune no opis..skali die angkat...rupe-rupenye die tgh ade hal wit his ex..aku dh tauler hal ape kan..lantak korang la...skali tue aku dpt msg...jgn ganggu die lagi..apekah..?

ko yg terduduk carik aku untuk memujuk emosi ko bile ditinggalkan pompuan tue sbb tunang ngan org lain..pastu tetibe cani..lantak ko lah...susah jgn carik aku dh..terduduk lagi kalo die gie kawen..gie mampos sama kau.....

aku sedang meneruskan misi menguruskan badan..smlm aku 2 jam di gym...ya rabbi..hari nie..barai badan aku..huhuhuhuh....tak pe takpe...demi kurus...tapi disebabkan hari nie aku tak larat dan bersama si dia...ku batalkan hasrat ke gym..esok pown boleh kan..ngeheheheh...

till thn...